I am so grateful for the many times God has shown me the mercy of not giving me what I want
One of the reasons I like to start my day with my eyes closed is because I say, "Thank You Thank You Thank You Thank You" (and mean it) while still in bed and before making as gentle a re-entry as possible. IF i had to guess, I probably say it 25 times or so, and I feel it right down to my toes. I mean, feel it.
God knows (literally) there are some days you may not feel so thankful. Maybe you are suffering from a broken heart, maybe you have financial problems that are causing you what feels like insurmountable stress. Maybe you really need to find a job after a long period of not working and your self esteem has taken a hit.. Maybe you are lonely. There's not a one of us that hasn't felt at least one or more of these hardships, at some point in our lives. Still, it's important to speak your gratitude before you even get out of your bed. Donning your spiritual armor to hit the ground running will lift your spirits before your toes even feel the floor. You may want to think about, imagine, envision what you feel grateful for before you even have it. Having a vision for your life and career is of urgent importance. It is just too easy to have our default thinking be the anger, the resentment, the fear, and the hurts we feel. Whatever the wrong anyone has done to us, it doesn't make anything better by letting the person or situation take up space in your head. That's just toxic. No, instead, be too busy moving on to dwell on the negative. Let it be a lesson in what you don't want and leave it behind you where it belongs. You must file the "don't wants" in the "don't want file" and stay focused on your goals. Being grateful brings more to be grateful for. I promise you this is true.
I remember the day I sat at the kitchen table with my head in my hands, thinking that God seemed to have forgotten me. Looking back on it, I was feeling so sorry for myself, that nothing good could happen. Negative thinking is the ultimate peace-robber.
One thing we always have, is a choice. A choice about how we are going to think, what we are focusing on. Are we going to focus on our fear, or our desire? In that sad moment in the kitchen, worrying if I would ever get a job again, and how I would ever catch up on my debts, I knew I needed to change my thinking. So, I prayed. I prayed positively, "God, I know you did not bring me this far just to drop me off" "I thank you that I am now open for you to show me the way. Thank you for showing me what I am supposed to do. Thank you for your favor, for the many talents you have given me. Thank you for putting me in the right place, at the right time, and with the right people." Thank you that my mind and heart are clear enough to see these gifts, and to hear you speak through my heart." Then I close with this one, "Lord, don't let me miss a trick."
And that's exactly what happened. Things supernaturally began to fall into place. Before long. I landed the best job I had ever had, I got out of debt and started taking my financial responsibilities very seriously. My personal life began to mirror my career. The answers starting coming, and my path became more clear. It was as if my mind and spirit tuned into the exact right frequency, and I could not only feel my life, but very clearly hear my life. Hear my directives, without doubt. That day in the kitchen, with my head in my hands, I became an Ambassador for Christ.
It wasn't the "things," I was looking for, it was the PEACE.
I still face tough moments in life (that's life) but I am grateful for the strength and Faith that I know will ultimately make me the Victor. I have learned to be grateful for the cast of painful characters that enter (and now quickly) exit my life, for they too have a purpose. They are there to remind me of what I don't want. It's not that I don't want to be a part of their possible awakening, it's just that I want to experience my own. I am thankful for choosing to be a daughter of the Most High God. I am a proud Ambassador
Oh how I love you all. I want you to know that I am grateful for you, and I am always praying for you. It is a privilege being your prayer warrior :)
Focus on the good, because even she it feels like nothing matters, always remember, you matter to God